Take this for what it is, just an opinion.
I've been there, depressed and self destructive over similar issues. The last thing you need to do is worry about another mate right now, baggage and such. Give yourself some time, enjoy life again. Meeting a mate will happen at some point without even trying.
Playing hockey is a great idea, you're also a creative person so get that guitar working as well. Getting comfortable in your own skin is easier said than done but probably the right first step.
Anywho, hope it all works out.
I've been there, depressed and self destructive over similar issues. The last thing you need to do is worry about another mate right now, baggage and such. Give yourself some time, enjoy life again. Meeting a mate will happen at some point without even trying.
Playing hockey is a great idea, you're also a creative person so get that guitar working as well. Getting comfortable in your own skin is easier said than done but probably the right first step.
Anywho, hope it all works out.